Saturday, July 23, 2011

SEPARATION!!!

on July 23, 2011 in Hope, Love, Sadness with No comments

hello. . . . how are u everyone??? fine right. but not with me.
today is the saddest time of mine. my girlfriend went to jogja.
and now, i'm here. alone. without her. she was the one who gave me spirit.

now, when she went, the spirit too. it has begun to fade since this morning.

now, it's raining, so do my heart. i feel hard to breath like usual.
in my head, her image cover everything. i only think about her.
i know, maybe it's thing called LOVE. the special thing for human.
but i hope i can adapt. because i don't want make her worry about me.
i want her to focus on her test at wednesday. so she will pass that.

i believe she will pass that exam. and i've start to pray for that since i knew.
so i think my beloved God will granted my pray for her. i hope so much.
and i hope my future will be at AMG. so it will open chance to meet her.
i love her. i miss her. i need her. i want to be together with her. . . .

i hope we can meet at jogja. so my spirit will be boosted by seeing her face.
i hope AMG. . . . please please please. let me enter that government's school. . . .

PS.

It is another cringe moment, i wanted to delete it but decided not to. It was me at that time, i made mistakes as human. So, let's keep this stupid shit in this blog for future. Puberty is scary. lol. (2023)

Thursday, July 7, 2011

few things that will probably happen

on July 07, 2011 with No comments

hai. . . . long time no see. it must be a month since last time i wrote.
i brought a bad news today. i have to be separated from her for some period of time.

our time left for being together in my town is about 13 days. . . . OMG!!!

after that she will have a test in jogjakarta for few weeks maybe.

but there will be a problem too, if AMG accepts me, then it will reduce our time.

maybe for 5 days or more. i don't know, ready or not. but i have to face it.

yeah, for the future of our dreams. i hope AMG will accept me. :)

so when i do the registration, i can go to Jogjakarta to visit my sister.

of course i will visit my girlfriend too. that was the main plan. hehe. . . .

but before all of that happen. i just want to make our time more precious.

i just want to stay together. talk. dream. hang around. and many thing else.

in few days i still have to follow test in order to be a student in IPDN. :D

because of that my time will be cut again. again and again. loneliness. :(

but i have to be strong. i have to be mature. i will be the leader of her.

i pray for my own future. my lovely God, please guide me.

please, make me be a student in AMG or IPDN. . . .

PS.