The Calm Mode (Part 2)

Haiii heyyyy oiiiii.... 3 times because i was absent for so long. There were so many events that happened to me for the last 3 months. Most of them are sad story though. I will write about it later. I hope i will not forget about it, so i can share it with you guys. Alright, let's keep it short and focus on continuation from the last part. 

The calm mode have advantages and of course disadvantages. I can't mention it all, but i can address some that i experience and happen most of the times. For me, they are in gray area. Because sometimes, it was the right thing, other times it was not. That is why i called it gray.

First of all the example is like when i really needed to get angry, it did not happen and made me look stupid instead. At the moment when my emotions boiled up for some seconds, it died down as soon as it wanted to explode. It was so bad. When i was supposed to be angry, i laughed instead because the emotions were gone. It left me at the neck of climax without reaching the peak. It happened to the happy, the fear and the sadness too. But there are some occasions that the calm mode do not happen in instants. It was the condition in extreme mode. When i lost the ability to think and left it all to my heart. The only thing that could reach the extreme mode currently for me was the sadness. I have not experienced for the other emotions because the sadness was the only thing that happened to the extreme when i was learning about managing emotions. So of course, the wall would collapse so easily whenever facing the extreme wave of sadness.

Anyway, that is all. I knew this was meaningless, but i just wanted to tell you all and shared it. I should have post it few days after the first part, but things became quite hectic at those days behind. Sigh.... I am disappointed to myself. I let myself drown in laziness. There are so many project unfinished that i need to take care. Yet here i am.... writing. Errr.... thank you for reading this. Because as i am writing this, i do not have the zeal to tell a story and this thing is not that interesting. It should have been merged with the first part. My bad. Alright, see you on another post.