Hai hai hai.... A quick update to welcome may. Recently i met someone new. Well, we started to talk regularly now. But not too deep. We discussed about our problems, not my turn yet though. But we start talking. I tried my best to not make any stupid move. I would like to make our meeting as a friend. I hope nothing more. Just to go day by day like that. Clean. Because there are too many times that friendship died out because i advanced too fast. So it is like that now. I try my best to suppress things. Hope this time will work out. Well our age difference is not that far, around 5-6 years. I don't want to lose friends again.
That's that. let's move on. Last Sunday, i went out to the beach but i didn't spend that much time staring at the sea. Almost all of my time, i spent it in my room. I watched the sea, but it didn't attract me much this time. Because my mind was still wandering. The pressure to finish my college keep on haunting me. If i want to clear all things, the first step i have to do is finishing my college life. So i can move on to the second part of life. Maybe i am such a coward. Enjoying so much for small paid jobs. A million for a month is so small, yet i already felt satisfied. I am such a hypocrite. I could have been someone so great, yet i chose to dilly-dally. I have so many masks to disguise yet i choose the truth mask almost all the time. What a waste.
Alright for the last part is me becoming so much better in driving. Well, i am someone who love speeding. Used to do unofficial street racing all the time. Sometimes i won, sometimes i learned. I beat so many vehicle that should be faster, yet because the driver was me, i won. Looks like i am bragging. lol. The adrenaline is still there. I could feel it in my last trip. Right now, i have to focus all of my energies to clear all the things that have to be done soon. Anyway, thanks for reading. See you soon.
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