not surprised

Hello.... I am back. Again. Sigh.... didn't know how many times I broke my own promise to myself. Before, I thought I could make it at least a post each month. Yet here I am. November. Last post was on April. Huh??? You asked me how long? It was 6 months. Not that you care though. Hahaha.... Haha... Ha.... Ummm it was supposed to be a joke. Yes, I was joking to myself of course. Alright, I'll let all those things aside.

Let's start from the worst. I failed to get the job by tests. Well I did actually enter the third phase. But sadly I was not good enough. I was actually sitting near the bottom of those candidates. One of the factor was because I was not well prepared. I neglected my training. And of course as I was lazy to prepare everything far from the due date.

Alright, let's move to worse part. I was actually running out of time to finish my college life. And I am currently running on it. My university forced us to finish our study with a date. It worked quite well. As so many students rushed their last assignment. I was one of those. Currently, I just have to finish the project and do presentation for the last time. At least, I am sure where is my end goal in this project. Oh, why I put this at the worse part? Because I am currently stuck because the vital part of my application in this project is in revision.

Right, let's move to the natural or general or normal part. The girl back then that I mentioned, the one that actually resides in different island. We lost contact for quite some time. But now we are in touch again. Luckily she was really a great person. So it was all a misunderstand between us. We cleared it up and now develop a much better atmosphere. Well, we haven't had any regular phone call like in the past, instead she just sent me voice note. Nothing really happened much between us. But I am really happy now with my relationship with her. She is a mature for a girl barely hit 20, she will be 20 in this December. If I really have some kind of luck and have a chance with her, I would grab it. I didn't put anyone yet in my hope right now, but if I had to, she would be on top of the list.

I guess, that's all for early November. Thank you for reading this mess. 😁

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Corona Wrecked The World

Hello people. How are you today? I hope you guys are doing just fine. So i was away for some time because my SSD died on me. But it is still in guarantee period. RMA it at Monday and swapped for brand new one. Then here i am typing all the things that currently happening. I missed march's post. Sigh.... I thought i would be able to post at least a post each month.

So let's start from this covid19. My government ignored it at first and made fun of it. They thought it would be wise to save the economy first, lmao. Then it killed our people and our economy. They failed to save both. Now everyone tried their best to help each other without minding what the government's action. 

The government moved too slow and tried to hide things to avoid making people panic. But again, their slow move made the distrust among the people high. People barely held it in. If they thought that people were still dumb, they were completely wrong. When you pushed people to the corner, they would retaliate. Whoever they were, they would fight back. Mark my words. I would like to speak more about it, but i decided to stop for now. I wasn't in good position right now. 

My younger sister and younger brothers will be back soon from their boarding school. In few days they have to be quarantined in a separate room for 14 days. This covid19 really ruined us. I would like to hug them because i missed the so much. I tried my best to be a better older brother for them beacause i knew that ever since father passed away. everything never going to be the same. They lost father's figure and of course i wasn't ready for it. I am still too far away to even reach my father's steps. So instead being dad, i will be brother instead, moving closely to them as friend. Maybe they didn't think much about it yet.

Anyway, i predict things will be worse in the upcoming weeks. Don't know when will this covid19 end. But i'm sure, with the current move from my government, it will be a long one. Expect it to last until July or even August. Who knows. It has been three weeks for me doing nothing. I am so tired. I want to go somewhere. I missed going out with my family. I missed my friend. I missed my work. I missed everything outside. Alright, see you guys on the next post....

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Hai hei hoi

Long time no see. How are you guys? Are you doing well? It has been quite a while since my last post back in May. I was drowned in sorrow then forgot updating. My bad habit is back, inconsistency. Sigh.

Anyway, just quick and small update about recent events in my life. February is such a good month for me. I keep on hearing good news in this month. I hope it will last until the last day. Please keep on being good.

First news, I am on second phase of tests. The result should be released at the end of the month whether i enter the third phase or not. I hope i can enter the third phase and finally enter the job that i have been wanting for quite some time. This job is for me and for my family mainly. Because it could help boost my family "status". Well, i don't care that much, but it will definitely help me reaffirm my position and force other people to recognize that my parents are not a failure. This bad stigma is currently in air for quite some time. I hate these relatives bullshits. 

As some people close to me know, i really don't want to be a great people. Just a random civilian in a random city is more than enough for me. I used to have a big dream. After it shattered to pieces, i chose to be small. I mean, i haven't figured proper way to clear things. I am such a bad person.

Second news, my closest friend and considered him as family was married last saturday. A big day for me. We are trio. He is the oldest from us. I'm the second. And the third one is working in different city. Yet last Saturday, we went together to our oldest's wedding. Such a blessing that we had a small reunion. I missed them so much. I could smile so wide because of the constant happiness that they gave me. I hope our friendship last until our last breath. hahaha

That's all i guess. As things are placed in great move right now, i should be good. I mean i will have great motivation in doing things. So i think, i can accomplish few posts. Not to mention if i enter the third phase of tests, i can even transform to another individual. lmao. Thanks for reading. Let this be a good start for this year. See ya!

credit to the owner of the picture. i didn't own it including all the pictures i uploaded in this blog.

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