when my wings is broken

good evening everybody. wah it's been a long time.

in a few months i got a lot of assignment in my school. :(

but now i have chance to post again. hehehe.... :D

but even if i'm happy, i bring bad news too.

one of the most precius women in my life, NL.

i don't know exactly. but i think she is in love with me.

the first time, i understood. it was a fantastic thing for her.

but, it goes wrong. when the lucky boy was ME!

i got depressed. i can't even think straight because 090810.

yeah, it was a long time, finally i got her with me.

but i'm still confused about her. does she love me?

she was caring with me. but after that, it went wrong.

she became so cold. it has been 3 days like this.

i'm not comfortable with her, if this condition continues.

and suddenly, one of my top ten people in my lists comes.

she cures me and she makes me understand.

but, then i know. she loves me more than i ever think before.

she sacrificed so many things. just because of me.

i have to let her go. because she decided to go away.

even she hasn't told me about it yet. but i understood.

she wanted to leave me behind.... :(

but i'm okay. it is for her future....

even if i'm not ready to lose her.

i can't hold back this tears. i'm a boy.

but i can cry too. it's so hard to feel it.

i feel down quite too much.

i'm so stupid as a man. :(

is this my life? to be hated?

i will never get a real caring.

every girl that loves me.

actuallly will leave me behind.

i know, the day will come.

and that day was today.

i completely lost her.

the most precius for me.

PS.

It is so cringe, i wanted to delete it but decided not to. It was me at that time, i made mistakes as human. So, let's keep this stupid shit in this blog for future. Puberty is scary. lol. (2023)