To My Dearest Future Wife

Saturday, 31 May 2014

Hello, it has been a while since i wrote about my life. Just posted random quotes from my everyday experience. Well let’s get start from this MAINSTREAM topic. he he…

I just want to apologize. Yes to you, my beloved future wife. I’ve cheated on you numerous times already. i am a bad guy. Well, i did that in the past because of this thing called “loneliness.”

I’ve born in a good and religious family, and yet i betrayed them. I tried anything in my teenage time. from “good” until “bad”. I’ve tasted everything that available. So i knew how it would work. And i guarantee you that i will not get addict to drugs or cigarette. Of course, not even alcohol too. That’s from the bad side of “things”.

Let’s go to the abstract ones. yeah, this thing called “love”. I’ve fallen in love since my junior high school. That was the first time and the last time was about several months ago. I’ve tasted many kind of emotion. Of course good and bad. This “love” thing gave me plenty of experiences in life. From spirit to live or gloom to death. Well, i was in my unstable period.

Now, i feel like it was so funny to see me in the past. So funny. If i could go back, i would like to punch myself to pulp. I felt like i was complete different person in this present age of time. Well, this thing called “love” also the one who guide me to maturity. Not 100%, but it took almost half of the role though.

Ok, i want you to know, this time, i will make sure to not cheat on you anymore. And not to try “something”. Because I’ve done that it in the past. I will control every inch of my emotion. Make sure to protect it. And then one day i will say, “This heart reserved for you only, my dearest.”

Just so you know, I’ve recently tried to work out again. I want to make sure to meet you in my great shape to not let you down. It’s not like i want to be someone else, it’s just i want to be healthy again. I won’t let you see me as a weak person. Because i am strong. Yeah strong enough to learn many things in this life and not to give up so easily.

I want to make you rest assured and feel no worry in my protection. I think this is only for part one. Well, let’s continue it later.

From your future husband. Don’t laugh please. Oh, honestly„, :p