Hello everyone.... Finally, i have posted all of my articles from tumblr. So i will update some of my recent experience. There are many events. But for now, i will write the recent one. This event force me to go outside. This is the first time i am writing in public place. It is a cafe. This cafe is not that far from my house. About 7-8 minutes by riding with my bike. Well, i want to inform you,...
Monday, December 15, 2014
Sunday, December 14, 2014
Broken Attachments
on December 14, 2014
in Birthday, Confession, Information, Love, Regret, Relationship, Sadness
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Saturday, 12 July 2014. It will be the longest post in this blog and the last post from my tumblr. And for me, it is the most interesting event of my unstable. :D
Hello, it has been a while since i wrote. well i got mixed news.
Yesterday it was my birthday. I hided it from my Facebook. As i expected, none of people who i listed send me anything. Not birthday card nor messages. hurt me...
Friday, December 12, 2014
Time Doesn't Heal
Time changes everything or time heals all wounds. But the reality, it
was just what people said. Doing things change things. Not doing things
left things exactly as they were. And if you just leave it alone, it
is not going to clear itself up like some kind of magic. So take
actions, don’t just...
Wednesday, December 10, 2014
Lingering Affection?
Saturday, 23 August 2014
What has happened has nothing to do with me…
I have just been watching the whole time from distance.
You, the whole world and everything outside continues to move on.
No matter how hard i tried…
No matter how much i love you…
I knew that nothing was going to happen for me…
You were completely different from when i knew you…
The “you” back there was already dead.
The...
C. JoyBell C.
Tuesday, 12 August 2014
There is no such thing as a “broken family.” Family is family, and is
not determined by marriage certificates, divorce papers, and adoption
documents. Families are made in the heart. The only time family becomes
null is when those ties in the heart are cut. If you cut those ties,
those people are not your family. If you make those ties, those people
are your family....
Tuesday, December 9, 2014
Another Random Quotes
Monday, 2 June 2014
I don’t regret my past. I just regretted the time I’ve wasted with wrong people.
From my best friend Wishnu.
Saturday, 7 June 2014
If you could put an act to be cold, I could turn myself to ice.
Saturday, 5 July 2014
I am sinner. I made mistakes. But after that I would apologize and pray to God. Fix my mistakes then clean my own mess.
Wednesday, 16 July 2014
Diam...
To My Dearest Future Wife
on December 09, 2014
in Confession, Information, Love, Mistakes, Relationship, Zeal
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Saturday, 31 May 2014
Hello, it has been a while since i wrote about my life. Just posted random quotes from my everyday experience. Well let’s get start from this MAINSTREAM topic. he he…
I just want to apologize. Yes to you, my beloved future wife. I’ve cheated on you numerous times already. i am a bad guy. Well, i did that in the past because of this thing called “loneliness.”
I’ve born in...
Monday, December 8, 2014
Random Quotes
Tuesday, 24 September 2013
Focus on self-repair. focus on ourselves. never ever try to ask help from
another person. do everything on your own. sooner or later, you can
stand still in this atrocious world.
Everything will be back to normal. i felt so relax. everything’s moving just
like my plan now. if i have done this before, i should have been further
in step to success. ganbarimashou!!
...
August's Posts
Wednesday, 7 August 2013
Our Journey Met Its End
This month really marked many vital aspect in my life.
New university, new jobs, and the most important thing, new heart.
Well, after this long time period, i could get over with it.
Yeah, i knew that i was so stubborn. but i could make it in the end.
So that’s okay right? right now, i am trying my best.
I should make up everything that I’ve done...
Atarashii Kokoro
Monday, 29 July 2013
Hello…. it has been a long time since i wrote something.
Well, i don’t know if it is a good news or bad news.
But finally i can move on after betrayed so much by my ex.
It was bound to happen sooner or later.
I want to ask for anyone forgiveness whoever i hurt. tee hee~
Well i was aware of it and finally i could make this decision.
I will do some self repair before i...
Sunday, December 7, 2014
Hateful Act
Tuesday, 8 January 2013
Aku akan segera kehilangan beberapa orang yang aku sayangi. orang-orang
yang benar-benar peduli padaku hanya karena dirimu. fantastis. tak terbayang
mereka yang melahirkan kamu tapi sifat dan perilaku yang kamu tunjukkan jauh dari mereka.
Membuka semua rahasia yang tersimpan. baik maupun buruk. karena jujur
itu menyakitkan. lebih baik hati sakit sampai...
Senjougahara Hitagi
If I kill you, that means I’ll be the one closest to you,when you’re on your deathbed. Isn’t it romantic?
If I may suggest, I recommend my waking you up every morning wearing
nothing but an apron. Then I can cook you breakfast. Isn’t it a man’s
fantasy to watch that from behind?
Right now, I’m afraid of losing you. Although my life hasn’t been very
fortunate until now, I’m glad if I caught your...
Come Back To Me
Tuesday, 18 December 2012
Right now i am in the middle of crisis in my life.
I’ve done something terrible to my girlfriend.
And now she wants to break our relationship.
I don't know what i have to do now.
Everything in my mind was in a mess.
The only thing i can think now is how to get her back.
I can’t focus on everything that i do.
Her decision really made me my heart broken to pieces.
I knew...
Saturday, December 6, 2014
Sedikit Usaha
Tuesday, 13 November 2012
Suatu saat nanti setelah semua ini berlalu, pasti akan datang waktunya.
Dirimu menggenggam tanganku dan kita buat dunia cemburu.
Kenapa bertahan? Karena aku belajar mempertahankan seseorang yg ku sayang.
Itu bukan dari orang lain, melainkan dari dirimu.
Diriku? Jelas bukan dirimu. Dirimu? jelas bukan diriku.
Tapi dirimu
lupa, diriku dan dirimu sudah menjadi kita.
Kita...
Another Usual Day
Tuesday, 6 November 2012
fiuh…. finally. it has been a while since i couldn't write many things on my head.i just got some disaster called “sick”. yeah it was something terrible.
but no problem. there was no damage in my body. but still ruin my activities.
yeah at least it was better than accident that makes my left body broken.
fortunately it was just for a week. it paralyzed because some of...
Friday, December 5, 2014
Air Mata
Monday, 1 August 2011
Tolong berhenti menangis! saya pria. dan saya menangis.
untuk orang yang saya kasihi, sayangi dan saya cintai.
sungguh sangat teramat sesak sakitnya ketika tau ini usai.
tapi saya tidak ingin semua berakhir. saya ingin bersamanya.
selamanya. sampai saya menua bersamanya. saya ingin.
tolong hamba Yang Maha Kuasa. hamba tak ingin cengeng.
tapi hamba tak bisa apa2. air...
Stupidity
Sunday, 31 July 2011
yeah…. I was so stupid last night.
complained about many things.
and then i got a bad thing from it.
cold. sad. empty. useless.
just trying to understand from now.
i should care about our heart.
STOP COMPLAINING!!!
too much hope in something isn’t good.
and again stop complaining!
it makes something goes worse.
so control your mind. clean it.
because you...
News For Future Posts
Dear readers, for tomorrow and the following days, i will back up my article from my tumblr. So there will be some mix in English post and Indonesian post. Well, I'm in the middle of learning. So please point my mistakes in grammar or words at the comment section or email me or gplus. Feel free to add my Google plus.
Thursday, 3 February 2011
Tak ada Judul yang pas. Hanya pikiranku.
Cinta...
Thursday, December 4, 2014
New Me
Hello everyone, it has been a while since i wrote something in here. I posted many things on my tumblr but not in here. Not because I was shy or whatever you wanted to call it, i just didn't have that much motivation to write in here. Well, now i am powered up again.
So, i have few bad news to write. First, i failed entering AMG, IPDN, and i resigned from KARBOL's end test. Because at that time...