Hello everyone, it has been a while since i wrote about something, especially in 2016. Most of it was assignments from my lecturers. So i couldn't write anything, because i thought that they would notice it and read my stupid journey. lol. Well, i have plenty of things that went bad. I will explain some of it in numbers. For now, i will tell you guys about the major first.
First of all, the decline health of my father. This is the huge hit for me. The guy that i looked up to. The idol in my heart for long period of time began to die out. I meant, i kept losing my faith on him. I didn't know why he became like this. He was the best man that i could look up to. I thought that i was being denial. Because i couldn't accept, "Nobody's Perfect".
He handled us as small family (now we are kind of big). Eating good food with great nutrition was his priority when i was a kid. In my family, we were forced to finish the meal that we took. So if you couldn't eat much, you shouldn't take the amount that you couldn't handle. If you did, get ready to cry later. At that time, as a small family that just started out, most of the time we could eat was eggs thingy. We did buy beef, chicken, or fish too. But most of the time it was eggs. I could eat more than 1 egg a day. Because when my sisters couldn't eat much, i ended up finishing their food. Because we were so afraid that my father would get angry if we didn't finish our foods. Ah i forget to tell you, we were forced to eat based on my father's amount. Not our own amount. In food thingy i mean. lol.
He managed every single thing in my house. He taught me every basic thing in the worldly knowledge or knowledge about my religion, as it resulted that i was excel in it. I could be proud when compared to kids in my age. I was being the first, in school or in neighborhood as a kid. Even now, if i give a little time to learn something, i could comprehend it fast. The only bad thing was he haven't have time to teach us that much. Especially in sport. He forced us, siblings to work our way alone. I'm not going to critic his parental teaching method. It is just that he haven't give any inheritance in that area. I could be careless about inheritance in money, material or something like that. But knowledge, it is different matter.
He was the best dad i ever knew. He could cook. He could do shopping. He could repair things. He could take care the three of us siblings at that time easily (now we are 7 brothers and sisters). He was someone that could handle everything easily. He was strong, he told us that he could run and cycling for kilometres back in the day when he was kid. He could wake up easily in dawn. Whatever time he intended to wake up, he could do it. The result was fantastic for 56 years, until 2015, he never have major sickness that i could tell. Even if he was, he hid it very well. Because he appeared healthy, even now when he is very sick. I love him so much. My eyes always get cloudy, whenever i remembered things in the past when we were kids. When my father focused his best attention to make sure we got what we needed.
Now, i couldn't explain what happened to him. I mean i couldn't write it here. Because i want to remember all the good things only for him. The bad things are for me to learn. But i'm sure one of the factor is money. It changed things. There are tons of things i have to think as adult. Time keep passing each minutes, hours, days, and years. And now i think throughly for every decision i have to make. And because of that, i have trust issue. I think that's all for now. I will continue another thing in part two. Let me think about it, there will be two topic, work and romance for future parts.
I hope you guys could learn something from my experiance after all this time. Even maybe it is so small. Still, i hope i can be some kind of help. Alright, see you later on second part. I will try my best to update it soon.
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